I hope you are well and enjoying this second week of December 2015. I am learning more and more everyday as I’m now in my sixth week of living in Los Angeles! I’m still navigating homes and work opportunities while I pursue my soul’s path and heal the world mission. I’m still transitioning and a little nervous naturally but feel okay for as long as I can remember I have been a problem solver and very diligent worker. I’ve realized over the past few years that I truly am my best self when I am helping and doing work that I love. As part of my soul’s journey I am here share my experiences and guide you on your journey. Ask my family, friends, former bosses and colleagues - I have always been the passionate, caring, charming, open minded, steady, reliable and loyal friend there to listen and guide you through whatever problem it is you are up against. People are always coming to me for personal and professional advice as I’ve always fought for justice and what I believe is right and true and I most certainly do tell it like it is. I am a problem solver.
While on my journey I have begun to realize that my life has been perfectly orchestrated if not for this post and exact moment.
Always holding myself to higher ground, I have realized that I may have inadvertently alienated myself from the people that I love so much. I am still working on removing these self imposed walls & barriers and my attempt to write allows me to be transparent when it’s naturally easier for me to not share my feelings including to my own family members... I can’t always explain how I feel but trust and know that I do feel and I feel deeply. I absorb energy of people, places and things so much and get intoxicated by images, scents, sounds and tastes. I am of course a very tactile sensory person. I have had psychic experiences and connection with the other side. I have allowed this part of my being to take over and dictate my life within the past year eschewing the logic from my life which had taken primary residence for the first 30+ or so years of my human existence.
Yes it seems I’m always on some sort of existential journey. It then dawned on me tonight while I have been conflicted most of my life between worlds whether living or dead, real or imaginary, corporate or agency, single or coupled up, high brow or low brow that I can allow myself to walk amongst you as my true self and let people in to see all sides of me. You see - to my really accomplished got their shit together friends - I’m a little more of the trippy gypsy - the wild one who has gone off and done something crazy. To my wild and crazy friends I’m the tame professional one! I’m the oh she is so sensible and got her shit together friend. HAHA You see now the world that I live in.
I think at the end of the day we all have the best intentions and good hearts but life gets messy and ugly and shit happens. Let me help you with the mess. I love cleaning and organizing and my life’s mission is all about serving, healing and balance. This is from the truest form of my soul and with that being said - I am here to help guide via whichever method is comfortable for you - as I finally reached the conclusion that I could be myself and do both Intuitive Tarot Card readings and also a more methodical let’s plan out this transition with a Project Plan approach or perhaps both - a true combination of the mystical, spiritual and logical.
It is how I know that I’m truly ready to help serve and heal and help this world. I’m able to remove all of the stigmas and issues that I’ve come against since I’ve been trying to separate the personal and professional for a long time. I was last in a role where I felt “myself” and in tune with my life, surroundings and career in 2010. FINALLY as we are approaching 2016 I am very happy and blessed to say that I’ve been discovering more of myself and my potential and I’m looking forward to being more focused next year in addition to helping heal more and to continue to love, heal, and develop my artistic and spiritual pursuits. Those that have known me over the past five years have seen me struggle emotionally (more so than usual), gain thirty pounds due to stress and toxicity, to then emerge victoriously when I stopped drinking so much and started taking better care of myself and following my passions. I still struggle with this but have improved and grown A LOT! I am far from perfect but I am accepting myself more and more everyday and I’m proud of that and how much I've accomplished thus far! If I can do it - You can do it!
What I want to tell you is that if you are struggling or ever feel alone or that you need help - it is OK and If you would like to discuss your goals, plan and path for January, all of 2016 or even the next week I am here for you. These can be spiritual or professional goals- know that you are in a safe judge free zone. Please reach out and let’s work together to get you back on track, feeling better and tackling your next passion project or transition in life. In this day and age, life is too short to be anything but happy. We need to do all that we can to regain our hope as a community and dreams and aspirations in a world that can be ugly and cruel on personal and global scales. When did we become so advanced technologically that we failed to connect with each other spiritually and humanely? Let’s stop the madness and start the loving, again. It’s not too late to do what you want to do and to make a change in your life.
Thank you too for trusting me and believing in me as I’ve been going through my transitions in life and able to share my stories with you. I have loved every ounce of what I’ve been through- the good, the bad and the ugly if it’s been able to get me to this moment. My measures of success in life are not monetary but spiritual and my goal is to keep ascending higher so I can continue to help others. I truly get off on learning and growing in this aspect. So maybe this is self serving after all but I think it’s a great vice to have. ; )
Thank you always for listening and have a great evening!
The Muse Crypt
PS As I have been to the bottom and learned some invaluable lessons, let me help share what I’ve learned and help you decipher your own personal spiritual codes and keep you on track so you don’t have to struggle and you can avoid some of the pitfalls. No transition or problem is too big or small - let’s talk, hash it out and have you on your way. Trust me, I’ve been there and have seen it all. I am here for you & I understand.