Today is 18 years since my maternal Grandmother passed away. I remember being in college and getting picked up to go home for the services. I also remember crying in the pew with my Grandpa and it seems like it was just yesterday.
Time definitely has a funny way of still going on but of course we still carry those of the past with us as we carry them inside. They also are watching us, with us and do communicate with us.
Unfortunately I was only 18 when she departed so I didn't get more than my formative years with her. She was sassy, dark and loveable (a Scorpio!) and a true Portuguese diva from Rhode Island. I have a Scorpio moon so identify with her along with the hereditary passing of her DNA through my mama.
Last year before her husband, my Grandfather passed away I started receiving messages from her that in layman's terms freaked me the f out but after a while I had to start accepting them and just go with it... To this day I'm still digesting but I know she was here to impart wisdom and knowledge to me and I will never forget those days - the times we shared together while she was physically here and also when she - her spirit was back with us, in essence to guide my Grandfather home.
The point of the story today is she is one of the reason's I'm in California today. I had been soul searching for a while and at some sort of turning point around my 35th birthday, I started following "the clues" and my path a little more closely and even when it felt insanely scary, I had to trust my gut and keep going forward as signs, symbols, lights, images and flashes would come to me that were not digestible as normal everyday experiences.
Upon deciding to leave a lucrative high paying job with no back up plan last April (so unlike a typical Virgo) I decided (since I was already crazy and doomed), that I would go on vacation with my parents to Sanibel Island, Florida. They started going there almost every year for their anniversary soon after my Grandma passed. As my Grandfather was about to pass I thought it would be a good time to be there for my mom and connect with my family, as their rebellious pain in the ass but loveable daughter. I am very independent and have always had my way of doing things so for me to even agree to share a room with them was MAJOR. Hahah I love my family but I've always needed to do my thing.
Upon arriving to Sanibel a few things happened. I immediately had Déjà vu, like I had driven on those streets before and no sooner we get to lunch after landing, I could see my Grandmother in everything and totally sensed her there. I sent pics to my Aunt who confirmed the resemblance of a person among many on a mural of a wall that looked like my Grandma.
The coincidences didn't stop there. When we arrived to the hotel - the room my parents usually stay in was not available even though they booked and requested it. We were given the room next door which numbers matched my cousin's birthday so I took that as a sign that we were meant to be in that room. At that time - occurrences like this happened frequently and while mundane to some - they were the biggest indicators of things to take note of (from my point of view.) This was happening to me a lot and I had no choice but to pay attention.
No sooner we go in - I know the drill. Observe and see what I can make of this room. I walked up to a photo on the wall and am in awe, laughing to myself and to her disbelief I am like - "Look Ma - that looks like you as a teenager" (as I point to a person in the middle of a picture). Yes she had red medium length hair and had the same facial structure of my mom and matched a photo I had of her in my mind -from a photo I had seen of her as a teen (that she still has in a drawer in her bedroom to this day).
So I did what came next which was send to my Aunt as she was one of the only people at this time who doesn't think I'm nuts. My mom is fed up with me at this point because I think the realization that I was manifesting as her mom was a little much. My aunt always reassured me that yeah "Your Grandma used to say crazy things but they'd always be true" and the stories of her matched how I cryptically can say things that are the truth - my truth and I can predict things that do unfold based off of my intuition and cognizance. I believe my gifts and the psychic line comes from her as it is passed through the mother.
The text I get back says - "Well that kind of looks like you right there..." So I look back at this picture. It is a picture of sixteen women on a beach in Manhattan Beach swimsuits. Upon closer inspection it does look like me, my mother and Grandmother all in a row on the beach! It still gives me chills in a way to think of / look back at this picture. I also see my Aunt and Cousin in the photo along with other faces of my Aunts on my Dad's side. It really is a trippy picture but it means the world to me.
It's crazy to think that less than a year of seeing this pic, I am living in Los Angeles to pursue my dreams and destiny and per a recommendation from a Manhattan Beach local - it is now on my To-Do list to go to MB Town Hall to find out more about this mysterious but apparently well known photograph. I had spoken to the front desk of the hotel in Sanibel who agreed to send my family the photo if they were redecorating. The resemblance in person is uncanny.
I'm glad to know on today and always that I've lived many lives with my family and can't wait to learn more about the mysteries of Manhattan Beach & Los Angeles.
I know this post may be a little out there. Some things in life we cannot explain. This is one I hold very close to my heart & cherish. It is part of my story and one I couldn't have even imagined. More to come...
Thanks for listening.
RIP Mabel Medeiros Knoll 10/25/16 - 2/17/98
The Muse Crypt
The photo of 16 women on Manhattan Beach as seen at the Seaside Inn in Sanibel Island, Florida.
Zoomed in photo of what has a striking resemblance to Me, My Mother, My Grandmother starting second from the left.
Photo of Mural on the Wall in Cip's Place. The likeness of my Grandmother in her later years is below in the top row in Green with glasses. I have a printout of Who's Who from the restaurant but it is currently in storage.